Now is the time to start blogging again...the time when things are happening...
Wow, the past three months have been a whirlwind of very mixed emotions and happenings. Lots of praying and hearing and speaking. Lots of trusting and believing. Lots of crying and pain and frustration. And thankfully, lots of smiles and excitement too.
The time came when I had to let go of my deepest desire and give it completely to God. Over the past year and a half I thought I had done that - I thought I was giving my desires and burdens over to God daily, allowing Him to have His way, but it turns out I was never really doing that at all. I carried on planning for what I wanted and maybe that was the very reason things kept being denied. My desires were not wrong or inappropriate in any way, in fact, I know they were right, I guess it was just the manner in which I was asking for them. Through the pain and tears God was showing that He wanted to be the God of our situation. I just wish we saw that earlier.
By letting go though, it meant there was room and time for God to work. Within the space of three weeks, God had spoken, God had provided and God had worked - in more ways than both Paul and myself could imagine. When we are completely surprised by Gods grace and blessings, He is working!!
Wow, Uganda was an amazing time - a time of miracles, a time of God being who He wanted and needed to be for us. Paul and myself shared 18 days of grace, blessings and complete love. God was showing us that when we give everything over to Him, He does work for the good of us. We were finally living in the miracle we had been asking for, for the past three and a half years.
Giving your deepest desires over to God is not easy. To me it looked like everything would completely change and go backwards. I thought it would make the whole situation harder and longer, when it actually done the opposite.
I've recently been reading the book of Ezra. It has been about Gods people building His temple in Jerusalem and how certain people done all they could to stop the building from happening. However, things were changed when those who were trying to prevent the building work found that a decree was written by the King, which stated the building of the temple should carry on and the gold which had been taken from there originally, must be returned. It then leads onto the King telling his officials that whatever is needed financially and materially for the building, including sacrifices, must be given to the people out of the royal treasury. It just hit me that God can do whatever He wishes so that His will takes place. There is no reason for us to fear because God, the God of the impossible, can change the heart of the King and of the Government so that it works for His people, if it's needed. Why should I worry about the embassy and immigration laws when God is in charge of mine and my mans lives?? Nothing can stop Gods will.
Like an old friend always says - where God guides, He provides.
