Wednesday 7 March 2012

Incomplete in Absence

I've been thinking a lot lately about love and the times that Paul and myself spent apart. Just this morning I was remembering the terrible moments of visa refusals and saying goodbye at airports. Last night I got to snuggle on the sofa with my man in front of a film - pure bliss in my mind! There was this quote from the film:

'Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists. When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence.'
Edmond and Jules De Goncourt.

This summed it up for me.

What is love? Love is exactly this - that feeling of incompleteness when you are without that person or that passion or that country that you hold dear to your heart.

I know that I love Paul but I also know that I love Uganda, I love nursing and I love young people. Being here in the UK is teaching me so much yet I feel somewhat incomplete. I am without one of the most important parts of my life - I am incomplete in this time of absence. I also know that if nursing or youth work was ever taken from me I would feel the same.

I am Pauls wife. I am a nurse. I am a Ugandan (at heart!).

What are your passions? Do they consume you, overpower you, take hold of everything in your life? Is your future of them and your heart overwhelmed with the love you have for them? Are you incomplete without them?

If you have passions like these, what are you doing with them? Are you pursuing them and pushing those opportunities or are you sitting back waiting for those things to just fall into place?

Life is about adventure and passion and love. Yet it is also about grabbing hold of the opportunities that surround you with both hands. It's about realising your passion and going for it. It's about saying NO to the world and YES to changing the world. It is about saying God these are my hopes and dreams and letting Him turn them into something much greater, more profound and more world changing than you could ever imagine.

Love is being incomplete without them but them also being incomplete without you. Would the world notice if you disappeared? Make it notice!!